This post is about an idea called ‘The Circles’ from a little book by the same name. It invites the reader to reflect on the people they place in their first circle and to make a conscious choice about whether that’s working well or might need a some change.
I stumbled across a little book collecting dust on my daughter’s bookshelf. It’s called The Circles and was written by well-known Australian actor Kerry Armstrong. The purpose of the book is to help the reader to take a helicopter view of their feelings towards friends, family and colleagues and to map them to one of seven concentric circles.
I’ve found the book helpful as a ‘check in’ for myself, and I thought it may be useful for you too – particularly as we enter a time of the year when, hopefully, most of us will find some time for reflection.
Each of the seven circles in the book represents where people are in your life and your relationships to them. The first circle is for those people who make you feel good about yourself, while the seventh circle is for the people you find most challenging. The author is quick to mention that who you place in each circle is entirely up to you, and that it’s important for you to know that this will change – and that you can choose to make changes at any time.
In this post I want to focus on the first circle.
The author explains that the first circle, the one right in the middle, is where you get to express all your hopes, dreams and thoughts. She invites you to put yourself in the centre of that circle and ask yourself:
Who knows me here?
Who can I trust with my life, my thoughts, my dreams?
Who makes me feel free to be myself?
In other words, who would you have inside that first circle with you?
Perhaps you might like to take a moment to do that for yourself? What do you notice?
The Circles got me thinking about and truly appreciating the people who are in my first circle. It also got me reflecting back to a time in my life when I didn’t even know that was missing. It took me many years to find my tribe and it was a surprising lesson to learn that, in the main, my tribe is not my family. (This is something I will share with you in a future post.)
The book also got me thinking about how supportive and enabling it is to have people in my first circle, how these people have helped me (and continue to help me) navigate the complexities of life situations and depths of emotion that I regularly experience (exacerbated by being a highly sensitive person, or HSP).
Just knowing that I can share absolutely anything with someone in my first circle without being judged; that I can pick up the phone to one of them at any time and have a much-needed rant or cry or laugh or celebration and will always be meet with unconditional love. This is such a liberating feeling. Not surprisingly, this type of arrangement is often reciprocated, especially with my first circle friends. (It has taken years of getting to know myself better to be able to begin to cultivate this.)
I haven’t written this post as a ‘you must be like me and have someone in the first circle’ rant. It is important to acknowledge that some people, for a variety of reasons, prefer to stand in the first circle alone, and that may well be exactly what works for them. We are all different so as long as we are choosing consciously what works for us and making changes when things don’t work for us, the rest is irrelevant.
However, for me having company inside that circle does matter. Any here’s why:
As human beings, we are designed to ‘feel’. Part of managing ‘feeling’ is having someone with whom you are completely comfortable and safe expressing how it is that you are feeling. Someone who won’t judge you or blame you, who won’t try to fix you and who is available to listen deeply to you. That’s how we move through strong emotions and in doing so learn about ourselves and the world around us: by expressing them.
For those who are happy alone inside the first circle, they may find that expressing their feelings somewhere – through journaling or creative expression of some kind, for instance – is enough. But for me and many others, it needs to be another person.
However you do it, it is important that we regularly express how we are feeling in some way. If we start to hold onto all of our worries, literally inside our bodies, this affects our physical, mental and emotional wellbeing. We can get sick, lose sleep, worry unnecessarily. If we have a predisposition towards mental illness, the inability to express feelings can be a trigger for that too.
I encourage you to take the opportunity to ponder and consider: Who is in your first circle and is that working well for you? Or is there an opportunity for an overhaul?
In my next post I will share some tips for attracting the tribe that is perfect for you.